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[23 Nov 2004|09:43pm]
3 new pairs of shoes still didn't help
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[12 Nov 2004|12:09pm]
its taken me long enough but i think i've finally figured everything out. i feel like my life is just falling together. like it was a huge puzzle before with all the pieces mixed up and tossed around wrong side up but slowly they're all being pieced together. and i know that sounds lame & like im trying to be all philosophical and shit but im not. i have great friends, im going to be done with school before i even know it, i have a great family, i have everything ive ever wanted, and anything else that im unhappy about with myself and my life will be fixed with time and hard work, i just have to go through day by day doing my best, not sulking or feeling sorry for myself if im not happy with something. im strong believer of, everything happens for a reason, and it really does.

anyyyyywayyyyyyyy. yesturday was like the best girls day/night out ever. nikkie, sarah, and i went to el trem?/shopping/photobooth/near fatal car accidents, folllowed by sushi with stephanie/leila's/juicy suits/jerrys. i honestly couldn't have asked for anything else.

okay thats it for now. <3333

[07 Oct 2004|08:57am]
i am at school as usual, and as usual i am not studying for midterms, which are next week, i have three of them, all equally difficult.
i start working next week, planet funk, and hopefully everyone will want to buy jeans, shirts, etc. from me, cause that will help with the whole commission thing.
this past weekend was fun, lots of fred segal, work, drunk/sober food, hopefully ill be in SB tonight, that would really be a nice change.
well econ awaits, another hour and a half of use less lecture, gotta love it.
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[11 May 2004|10:22pm]
my heart is racing, i feel like im going to through up, im on the verge of tears.
why do i do this to myself?
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HELLO BLACK DRESS. [10 May 2004|03:48pm]
so i havn't updated livejournal in like FOREVER. and i think its mostly cause my life really isn't interesting.
it revolves around school, pierce, works, the occasional fights, and the few specific friends. i don't know why im really updating now but it just feels like a good time to write about something that doesn't involve business law or government and politics. i guess thats kind of all i really have to say, so much for my live journal comeback.
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today i had a good day. i had school in the morning, and it was very warm outside for the first time in like forevvvver. i then worked out for about an hour, then kaye came over and we ate pizza outside in our bathing suits and tried to get tans. we went to robeks too. after that i quickkkly took a shower got dressed + did my hair + makeup. i went to pierce bought mine & jess's business law books and then drove for about an hour and have to BRITNEY SPEARS. she practically had sex on stage and i wore an orange and white stripey dress with jeans. i then came home to a new car for my dadddd which i am very excited about even though i am not allowed to go anywhere near the gas pedal. now im justing going over all the homework i have to do for class tomorrow. its all good though. today was a good day.
nigggghttt. <3
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[09 Feb 2004|10:04pm]
i don't understand why i am going through this. this anxiousness/nervousness/worrying seem to just be a part of everyday life now. this fake smile and unability to be happy. these constant tears only a second away from acctually dropping. the worst part is i don't know what this is.
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[14 Jan 2004|04:42pm]
so for a week since last wednesday i have been extremely anxious and nervous for no reason. and completely wired on coffee.
but its okay cause its nothing that a good shopping spree with my favorite jessica and seeing a cute boy can't fix.
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[27 Dec 2003|01:40am]
i wanted to update yesturday but i couldn't remember my password to livejournal.
i never thought that would happen.
i am way ready for 2oo4 because two thousand and three mostly sucked the big one.
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hello. [23 Oct 2003|10:48pm]
my hair is growing, i lost my wallet, i had to cancel everything, someone turned it in, i got it back, it was torn apart, i bought a new one, its exactly the same as the old one, i did homework with fen today, homework was really going to val surf and in n out, i didn't go to the gym after work, im sick of work, school, pierce, i want it to be senior year, i want to go to NYU/USC?NORHTWESTERN, i want to be in college, i want to do cute college things, i don't want to deal with anyone being sad, im happy, i've had a lot of fun the last two weekends, its funny how easyily i really do have fun, i don't have anyone i don't like, i'm over drama, i have the ACT on saturday, i don't think i am going to get into college, i am ranked 102/700, i always thought i would do better, i kind of don't care, i miss a lot of people, but the people i miss are gone and over, i really want to be confident in myself, i want uggs, t triple5 jacket, a roxy scarf, i have a shopping problem, i do not have room in my closet, my newspaper teacher is being a bitch to me, my gov. and english teachers are retarded, physiology is good, so is bussiness calc, i am going to grow up to be succesful, with a nice house, nice car, and happy.
that is the longest sentince i have ever written that doesn't make any sense, but it is what is on my mind and i might as well get it all out in one quick swoosh than drag it out in long complex sentences to make myself sound smart.
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"life is a black dress, and i'm green shoes." [06 Oct 2003|04:19pm]
So this weekend was really good, friday i had lunch with my mom and watched about three hours of will and grace. Then later jackie came over and we met up with darci, jessica, jared, stephanie, and megan for some hooka. WE then looked for parties and eventually ended up at Darci's.
Saturday night i had work, but after jackie and i went to my co-workers party, and i really want to grow up already. The drive home with a little buzz, was probably the most fun i've had in forever we sang along to tainted love and get low.
Sunday night i just worked.
And today i attempted to write my government essay, but really ended up ordering clothes, watching ocean's eleven, and doing PART 1's for college applications. Tonight will end with Yom Kippur dinner and math homework, but i don't mind.
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hello senioritis, goodbye world. [29 Sep 2003|09:36pm]
i have about 9834732 pages of physiology and my college essay to write but instead i am sitting here day-well more like night-dreaming.
so i got my application to northwestern today-my first college application and im stoked. i keep envisioning myself walking into my first real class with a cute nose, long hair, and skinny. and it's strange that out of everything all i think about is my physical appearence. maybe it's because high school has been such a mess. maybe it's because i'm too self concious but either way i can't wait.
i really don't like high school, and everyone's wimpering and whining. whoever thought of taking 3000 teenagers with ragining hormones and locking them into a campus with various rooms for 7 hours a day was retarded. i hate coming to school and seeing my old best friends new best friends and everyone in between-all miserable or other terrible emotions. i hate the way i feel half the time, and i am so ready to move on.
maybe i should talk about all this in my college essay-maybe not.
so college:come sooner!
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[15 Sep 2003|02:37pm]
so today is september 15, the last time i updating was a month ago. it isn't that nothing has happened in my life, it is more like i never have the energy to write about it.
school is school, my classes arn't the hardest EVER but they are time consuming, and staying in at lunch when i only have four classes doesn't help. not to mention the calculus class i go to two times a week.
work sucks, they screw me out of shifts, and it feels like they want me to quit.
friends, i feel like i'm standing in the way of your "good" thing, and i hate that. it's like it is all happening all over again.
and if that all wasn't enough, family, i should have thrown it away i know i should have, but i didn't!!! i'm so scared that they're going to find the rest of it, and not trust me anymore.
my life is a mess, and i can't seem to do anything about it.
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IT IS A SIGN; I'M GETTING A NOSE JOB. [19 Aug 2003|12:59am]
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[17 Aug 2003|01:51pm]
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aneeeeway, things have been pretty good. i am so no carb right now. & i found how i wanna do my nose. & i am having so much fun redoing my room. anyway i guess thats all. work in 50 minutes. byeeee.
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[13 Aug 2003|12:54am]
my room, bathroom + closet smell like victoria's secret PINK because i dropped the bottle and it broke. it smells pretty good but i <3ed that perfume.
ANEEWAYY today was fun i had lunch with my parents, went to starbucks and read, and then went to melrose with kaye, dropped her off, picked her up and went to zack's.
kaye and i have so been inseperable the last couple days i love it, and i'm really excited for senior year.
humm so tommorrow is mother/daughter day, we're gunna see freaky friday and build my desk, cause im redoing my room, teehee.
i love all the friends im making and remaking.
well toodles.
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[09 Aug 2003|03:46pm]

[08 Aug 2003|11:17pm]
i am so updating two days in a row!!
today - i went to school so mrs. rubalcaba could sign my pierce papers so i can take "calculus for business and social science." then i had a yummy lunch with my mom and her gal pals, my mom's friends sister got a nose job and it looks really cute. and i fucking hate my nose, i really want to fix it. i also think it is time for a new hair style cause i have roots and my hair just looks gross, but i am growing it out. after lunch i got my nails done and barely made it to work at 5.
i got off pretty early and can not wait till next pay day so i can invest into my checking account.
that is basically my whole day!
and i am in a great mood.
tomorrow - kickboxing, sevens, work, and off to wackyzackys's. teehee.
now - bath + seventeen + white oleander and bed.
oh and my fishey's have names now too: dolce & gabanna!! (thanks!!)
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[07 Aug 2003|11:55pm]
ouch, the tip of my nose is burnt from the beach, cuz i decided to be a rock star and wear big glasses and a trucker hat, leaving the tip of my nose exposed to the sun.
besides this beach outing, i've basically been hanging otu with the lovely AA ladies, doing our typical stuff.
fenmore and i decided we're gunna move in together once we're outa highschool. we're gunna have a puppy named diesel, a kitty named juicy, and two gold fish(names to be determined).
besides that ive basically been doing a whole lota nothing, aka working/shopping/reading/watching tv/chillin.
i miss my camera and photography, i miss newspaper, and i miss being constantly busy.
i really need to stop buying $130 jeans, and i promise i will right after i buy these really cute sevens.
OK i am finished.
time for some white oleander and more importantly sleep.
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[31 Jul 2003|04:04pm]
So it is still summer. my whole attitude just like sprang up, im so glad Kaye is back, i missed her way too much. i fucking love not having school, what the fuck was i talking about in my last post. & i love my friends, and i love that im hanging out with people i havn't hung out with in forever. i went shopping today and got the cutest shirt and bra. haha. ok this was way to random of a post.

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